shizi dont know what am i still hoping for
yeah, i know that he doesnt care
he acts like that, but why the hell i still have some hope
even though he said yesterday something..
something that would dissapoint me
something that would break my heart
would cause a crazy pain..
for some reason i dont give up
damn its just my stupid optimistic faith
i have to get rid of it and kill all the feelings i have
this' not gonna work
we both know it
well yea maybe he likes me as friend and such...
and maybe the experience from the past it the reason why he has such opinion..
but i still dont understand one thing..
yesterday he said one thing that sounded like "i dont trust you"
but im not of those people who would brast and tell everyone that i have sucha leet friend
i cant believe he didnt realize it
or he just pretended
but actually who knows..
well okay, i knew his opinion before
i knew what he was thinking about relations and marriage on iro
but....
"whatever, marriage means nothing in this game XD"
well
"whatever I dont wanna hear it"
"if it means something to you, good for you"
i felt a crazy pain after ha said that
i mean, a REAL pain
yeah stress sucks
i wish i could change his point of view
and i wish i could melt his heart
mmm, we'd never be apart..
mmm, give yourself to me..
mmm, you hold.. the key
o well..
school starts soon, right?
so i wont spend much time with him
that will help me to forget
but i dont want to lose him
i'll miss him
hes a part of my life
but i want to kill feelings
sigh
damn this sucks x_x
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madonna - frozen
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bleh